Do chill. I’m not trying to scare you by exposing your antics here. I just want to… try to know you better. It’s about time I do.
I have been ignoring you for years. You are as stubborn as hell, and I couldn’t help but be scared. I constantly listen to my elders and work on diligently carrying out my mission. I have to be respectful, hardworking, honest, and quiet.
You saw what was happening to me, how I’m gradually turning out to be a conformist. You frown and think: “that ain’t right.” So, you took me on a little rampage. I synced my Internet connection, and you flicked on my curiosity.
For hours, I have been secretly watching horrendous videos of war, violence, pain, and injustice. You have shown to me people who had been conformists, too – they were respectful, hardworking, honest, and quiet. Things didn’t go well for them: plundered homes, raped women, unspeakable tortures.
Okay, I get it.
Solely focusing on things that are downright positive restricts my growth. Profound lessons are abundant in the dark zone. You may be bull-headed, but you sure know your thing. Of course, I didn’t get it all in one sweep. Instead, I came to know these things on a gradual scale. None of what I saw comforted me – regardless of excuses or stories or culture.
Good thing, you promised me nothing; otherwise, I may have hated you for showing me those things.
I continue to find shreds of horror all around me. I started to entertain the idea of atheists, agnostics, left-wing, right-wing, communism, democracy, and awful lies. I’m not proud about developing a thicker skin for these things. Nor will I ever be proud by the fact that I, too, am guilty of their sins.
Throughout the journey, you have not even once abandoned me. For that, I am deeply thankful. I hope you don’t get tired of fighting against me, for me. We aren’t pals, but we are good at it.
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